Sunday, December 29, 2013

How do I not screw up my kid by dating again?

So here is the thing I would really like to start dating but I am worried about how Laylaboo

Will handle this, I mean how the hell do you explain to a 8yr old that your dating?

Do I tell her casually as we eat dinner O by the way honey I am going out tonight with

A really nice guy . Or honey while I was on my dating site I met someone and were going out.

Or should I just be like mommy needs to do adult things too....Um this just sounds gross even to

Me. I suppose I could just have said guy show up and introduced  Laylaboo and then say this

Is mommy's date I will be back soon, But that seems A Bit cruel and wired.

Well how am I suppose to do this there is no handbook that tells me how not to scar my child

By dating again I could be wrong there just might be. Maybe there is a set of rules that I am

Suppose to follow. It just seems like such a odd subject to bring up not that I haven't tired

Yesterday I thought hey this is a good time to bring up why it's OK if mommy dates clearly I

Wish someone would of stopped me here is how that conversation went, Me so Laylaboo

You know how we talked about How sometimes mommy's get lonely and need to have

Adult friends around who are sometimes guys? Laylaboo stare at me with her annoyed express

And Say's" yes Mom why are you acting so wired? I smile nervously will I was just wondering

What you would think of me dating? Would you be OK with that?  Laylaboo gives me her best

Smile but as I know this smile is the nervous one she has when something bothers her.

She rolls her eyes at me and Say's mommy this conversation is really making me feel gross and

Aren't you kinda old to be dating? Anyway I don't need a new daddy I already have one.

Yep this conversation was going in the wrong direction.

I tried to reassure Laylaboo that I was not looking for a new daddy for her and that I was just

Wanting to go out get out of the house. I could not be a single mom forever.

Will apparently This did not sit well with Laylaboo who got up so quick that you would of

Thought she had ants in her pants. She was fuming she looked right at me and said "and what

Is so wrong with being single mom?? And if you start dating who will take care of me and be

There for me? I tried really hard to understand where she was coming from but also thought to

Myself really kid I have been single since you were 4 do  you want me to be a old sad single lady

With cats? I was about to explain myself when I heard Laylaboos door slam. she may be only 8

But she had the part of angry drama teen down to a 10. I went to knock on her door to try and

Talk to her and make her understand but then I thought Nah  let her cool down.

As I sat starting at my computer screen I started over thinking ,Did I go about the

Dating topic  the right way? Should I wait until she is older? Am I being selfish? what if she

Started acting out to get my attention? Why did this all have to be so hard? Well it wasn't as if

I hated being a single mom I don't mind it but no one wants to be alone I think I have just

Quoted a nickleback song. But seriously when Laylaboo becomes a teen and I am sitting alone

At home maybe it will be to late to date or what if she leaves home then what Am I suppose to do

Sit at home feeling sorry for myself? Nope this could not happen I will not be a crazy old cat

Lady and  the way things were going lately this could very will be my future. Seriously The only

Action I have been getting is when I forget my cell is in my pocket and I have it on vibrate other

Than that I don't think my overly sexual dreams are coming true anytime soon Dammit!

Now I am not saying I am trying to date just so I can have a lot of sex let's make that clear but

Come on I need a life a little excitement something worth getting up in the morning for.

So I could just lie to Laylaboo keep it from her that I am dating or I could just tell her how it

Was going to be. well both ways may have her in therapy but god I hope not.

I knock on her door and get the angry yell of go away,  silly child you know I will not go away.

Nope I just keep knocking.  Finally grouchy 8yr old opens door. Gives me stink eye and buries

 head under pillows,  I just start talking anyway, Look I know you don't want me to date

I know you think that I am going to forgot about you or change but I am not. You will always

Be the most important person in my life no one can change that. Besides do you want me to

Turn into a scary old lady who has a bunch of cats and then I go crazy and start talking to

Myself and I wear blue eye shadow and horrible red lipstick all over my mouth and teeth is that

What you want me to become? Laylaboo peeks out from under her pillow and I see a smirk on her

Face. She lifts her head "Mommy seriously don't you think you are being a little dramatic?

OK then Austin Mahone comes to ask you out and I say NO Laylaboo I wont allow you to date

Him because you wont love me anymore or pay attention to me! What would you do? Laylaboo

Laughs and groans "Mommy first of all I am 8 so that would be gross but If I was older I

Would say sorry mommy but I am not about to miss this chance and besides I will always be

There for you no matter what no guy is going to chance that. She sighs OK mommy I get it

I guess you dating would be OK just wired .I am just worried about you I don't want you to

Get some wiredo. I smile well  I promise you I will be very careful who I pick to go out with

And I will  always let you know what is going on. Laylaboo sits up on her bed and hugs me.

So far I have not been on any dates way to me creepers have been asking me but I am hoping to

Find someone nice and I hope Laylaboo  acts OK when I go out but I am still worried

About how she will really react I just hope she doesn't turn into problem child anyone

Else remember that movie that child was awful! Movie was funny but don't need that in real 

Life. Just as I am finishing  this thought Laylaboo calls my attention I look over at her and

She is on the computer on my profile O god  I have left my dating profile open just great!

Laylaboo smiles hey mom this guy's cute and look at his car! Mom hurry ask him out before

Other girls do he is definitely a catch.  Will maybe I wont have to worry about a problem child

Just have to worry about my 8yr old trying to set me up. This should be interesting.

So have any of you online dated and if so did you have kids you had to explain it to?

How did that go? I look forward to all comments and feedback. I really appreciate everyone

Takes the time to read my blog! Thank you.






 

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